Tuesday, February 23, 2010

What Did I See?

Things have been disappearing lately. I drive in the early morning in the dark and the truck's shell seems to leave me. I am left with my thoughts and the music moving down the road toward a purpose without a purpose. I am on automatic and the vehichle that moves me is not really there. I looked at footprints in the snow yesterday. I saw rabbit prints, bird prints, dog prints, cat prints. Then I took my own prints and made the other prints disappear. In the afternoon I stepped in the prints that I had left in the morning, my new prints disappeared. The icicle I saw yesterday escaping the gutter was gone today. The new song I listened to today took away my old favorite. There is a new tune haunting my ears. This new sound takes me away from where I am. I feel closer to where you might be when I listen to it. I've listened to it for hours now because it brings me to you, Frost.
I took a shower today and stood in the water until I disappeared. I stared at the water running down the walls until I became loose like the drops. I held my place until the tension broke and I fell. The water held me. The warmth made me real. The scent from the soap I used before I vanished covered the shape on the floor that was me. The tears ran into the water drops and were lost and new. An hour disappeared in the shower. I dried myself and the water disappeared and changed. What did it become, what did you become? I am different now, the old me has changed, I am new. What have I become?
Night, night Frost
Mama loves you.


  1. I was a little extra creative tonight despite feeling down and made something for you about Frost. It's simple, but I was thinking of you. Could I mail it to you, or would you prefer a scan that I can email?

  2. Oh thank you so much for thinking of me and Frost. I guess I will send you a note with my address and e-mail on BC. This is so special.